As i sit listening to the trees as they creak and crack back and forth through the wind, i remember days like these when nothing was impossible. I remember a time when i was little where on sunny days we would lay out a blanket and look up at the clouds. "What do you think that shape is kels?" my sister would say with her finger pointing straight to the sky as if the cloud would not move from our site, like it was caught and couldn't go without our permission. "I don't know Jess , maybe a turtle?" i said as i continued to stare trying to see what she saw. "no'' she said " that is no ordinary cloud. That is the stuffing from Heavenly fathers pillow." I continued to stare at the cloud as it changed and moved with thee earth, and started to see the little cotton like edges. I couldn't believe my eyes! how had she seen such a beautiful thing from these clouds? to us small children this was a breakthrough.

I continue to listen to the trees and look up to a new sky i see the stuffing of heavenly fathers pillow and remember that he made it for me. this beautiful sky that changed almost instantly infront of me was made by a loving heavenly father, who when we look to the sky tugs at our heart strings to let us know he loves us. He knew what we would enjoy ( i like to believe anyways) and all he wants is for us to be happy and to know of his love. What better way than to show us these beautiful sceneries every day. All we have to do is look around us.

tippey barks to draw me out of my tranz and i return from the skys to the world below, curious as to what other little kids or adults were looking at the clouds thinking of all sorts of great things to describe the clouds.

poly pocket/ little tiny dolls

Ok so i was sitting in church today and i was surprised at what i saw when sacrament meeting started. In front of me with glistening legs,arms and forehead, perfectly molded body and hair; sat a little polly pocket! I could not believe my eyes! i thought they had totally gotten rid of those. i continue to stare at this little girls polly pocket and watch her struggle to put on the clothes for this doll here lies my dilemma.

Why the heck did they make it so dang impossible to put on the polly pockets clothes!! I mean they made the dolls legs super skinny to make it some what possible but then they wouldn't make it any further then the dang hips! then you have to struggle like crazy to get the skirt or pants on. So i think they should just make either the slits bigger or the legs and arms slicker to get the dang dolls clothes on haha

thats all kelsey out :D

Super heroes get super duper happy why can't normal people

This is my normal ,yet very super, boyfriend. Isn't he just so handsome. ok i admit .. im a little biased.

He is a hero of mine. Any normal human being can feel like a super hero i think and since they get to have the super powers and be super duper happy, why can't we normal people be "super'' happy too.

When i say super happy and tie it into super heroes i mean it to be more like SUPER HAPPY!!!! i also imagine sparkling lights and up on a bilboard for some reason like shining uber bright and blinding driving cars that happen across its subtle path. kinda like this

haha anyways why i am talking about all this mumbo jumbo about being uber super duper happy is that i have found this amazing guy and he makes me super happy! then all the thoughts of super heroes and how they are "super" happy popped into my head and the Theater marque and now this blog post.

oh and look at this picture hah it even shows my super happiness.

haha ok ok im done i just love this man so much i thought i would share my little take on how SUPER DUPER UBER happy he makes me feel.

kelsey out

What is this feeling so sudden and new?

Love... Its the word we all want to say to someone but are scared to even utter the four letters. Love is the one thing that can conquer all.

When you read a fairy tale you don't expect the witch to get away with posioning the princess. You expect the princess to find love and that if the prince were to just kiss the now dying and in dyre need of a hospital, princess that she will have a miraculous recovery and they will live happily ever after. Right? Isn't that what we all invision love to be?

I believe that there is this love out there. That one person can love another so much that just by believing and having faith in the other person they can accomplish anything together. I mean look at some of the couples around you today. The couples i think of arent famous to the world but famous to me.

There is my parents who even the toughest of times have come through them.

they keep close by eachother and face the problem head on. By doing this it made them stronger, and more in love with with one another then before. They even work together as a team to accomplish the day to day responsibilities and still keep a smile on their face for us kids. They are strong and courageous and deserve a medal for putting up with us four girls.

Then there is my sister and her fiance. They have been waiting for a year now to get married in the temple and it has not been easy. They have been through hoops and when told how high they jumped even higher. They are fighters. They have the best exuse to turn from eachother and fight and to just give up trying but they don't because of the love they have for each other they are fighting as hard as they can to stay worthy to enter into the lords house to be sealed for time and all eternity, to live forever in love.

Can you imagine a world without love? I can't. Even if i could it would be an image i could not look at for long. I love a man named Patrick. He is all i could have asked for and more. I cant tell you the place i was in before i met him, all i know is i don't want to go back. I have found my little piece of heaven and im not going to let him go. He is my light when in the darkness, my warmth when all the world is cold, he is my shield from all things terrifying , he is my strength when i feel week, he is my shoulder to cry on and he has my heart and always will. I am forever in his debt and am his for as long as he will have me. I love him. Without that love i would be lost and confused. I believe in fairy tales and i know that there is such a thing as happily ever afters all we have to do is believe in them.

kelsey signing off

changed for the better

Recently my life has gone on a roller coaster ride of changes.

First i have started and almost finished school. The heck-tick scheduling, managing of time, late nights with the LDS coffee in hand to keep me full and focused on whats at hand, and the ever so lovely early mornings the next day with an amazingly quick nap in class.

Second my bffitwww which translates into (my best friend forever in the whole wide world) who happens to also be my sister, is getting married. She couldn't have chosen a better man. He brings her flowers , comes just to see her laughs at her intelligent remarks with an added i love you babe. They are the sweetest couple and are truly perfect for each other and i couldn't be more ecstatic for them.

Third 2 of my best friends have now gone to different areas of the country and world to teach the gospel. They have grown up so much its unbelievable. im so proud to be their friend and to have seen them grow to the men they are today. The world is in for a treat with these men at hand, one is strong willed, determined to do what is right, and has a love for those in need. The other courageous , withstands temptations and laughs in the sight of them, he loves the people he serves and will continually show you his love for the gospel.

Fourth my 2nd bffitwww is going to be able to go on his mission and has changed so much

himself and only for the better.My dear sweet friend his kelso like, forest gump loving, yoda impersonating , fun loving, four-wheel driving, kind hearted friend has also grown to heights i always knew he could. Im so happy for him and happy of the path he has chosen to follow. He has impacted my life in ways he will never know. He will always be my bffitwww and i can't wait till the day i see him all dressed up in a suit preparing himself to go on his mission something he has worked hard for and deserves. It will be a sight that i could not and will not miss. It will be a sight indeed.

kelsey out

Friends

Sometimes i wish that things didn't have to change. I know they all happen for a reason. I know they usually are important reasons but right now i don't like it i guess. My institute teacher said that when we are going through the trial its hard and we complain, but when we finally see the light we jump for joy and thats when we trust in the lord. I trust the lord and all that he is doing for my benefit. I just didn't think about the out come.
I have moved 9 times in my life and each time was hard but grew into a magnificant testimony builder. I loved each and everyone of my friends that i made, and was equally as sad when we lost touch. I know that was also for a reason. Well it is the tenth move and all my friends are moving on as am i. I just thought that this time it would be different. That this time i wouldn't have to work as hard to keep intouch. That i wouldn't miss them all as much as i do. Don't get me wrong the move is great and i have met lots of people, but i still love those old friends to. Its just hard to see us growing further apart then i expected.

I had a friend at institute sitting next to me and we were in a deep conversation when her best friend came in. There was much comotion and hugging haha. I thought of how most of my best friends are 300 or more miles away and how much i wished they were there at that moment to share a funny joke or to just laugh together.

Now as life goes on i know i will make different friends and new best friends. That doesn't mean i don't love,hope and pray that i can keep the old forever.

hahaha that is all
ps i don't care if anyone reads this its just an easy way to express my opinions

What the heck?!?

Please tell me why THE THREE STOOGES is in the action area at best buy? haha did someone put it there by accident? or is it simply there because whoever was putting the movies out thought it to be action? I don't know the answers to these questions but seriously i will quote a friend "the only thing that is action about THE THREE STOOGES is that they do there own stunts." haha that is all

kelsey out

Want and need.

why is it that when you want something you can never have it? Then if you need it its like BOOM YES! you can have it.
when you want it You can't help but plead and plead with your parents or your little Giminy cricket to let you have it,yet they still say its not for you. I hate this! Especially the little Giminy cricket telling me no. haha its ridiculous!
OK so its like this i have two cookies i want to eat. One is put together, sweet, has lots of chocolate to make my taste buds water, <-- haha, bakes well,still has some getting used too,and comes out a super ultimate delicious cookie. The second is still a fantastic cook still in its cookie dough stages still sweet and chocolaty but is almost missing an ingredient , but is always there for me when i need a comfort food. I want both of the cookies but one is super sweet and delicious, and two is too but two is still so far away from being baked? Do i NEED two cookies right now? no so Mr.Giminy cricket tells me i don't need one and really i don't but that doesn't mean i don't at least want one cookie. If that wasn't a perfect way to say that i don't know what is. haha

What describes me. :)

hahaha this is definitely the ultimate description of my true self. NO makeup, NO cute hair, and in my pajamas. I really don't care what people think of how i dress haha i will dress how i want to and not wear makeup if i don't want too. I also like pulling funny faces and making people laugh. If it offends you ha don't look. This is me and this is who i am! :)

A place i have been!

The beach! i mean who couldn't love the beach? hahaha its great! the sand between your feet, the sea breeze, the sound of the waves hitting the shore. It the best place to go to when you need a vacation. You can never go wrong with the beach. It will be there tomorrow to welcome you again.

Habit i wish i didn't have.

A habit i wish i didn't have is Biting my nails when im nervous.. hahah well i bite them whether im nervous or im not but its something i wish i didn't do. Especially when the ladies at the nail place look at your nails and at you say something in Chinese and then tell you how horrible they are and how nasty a habit it is. haha Ya so i guess i should stop, but ... it will be hard . haha but ya thats it.. :)

kelsey signing off

Day # 3 :)

We have been friends for idk MY WHOLE LIFE!! hahaha i love her to death and we party hardy all the time. We are always ourselves. hahaha that is all i can't really describe how awesome she is hahaha

Day numero dos!! ( that means 2 ha)

the funnest memorie i have had (not the only one) is when i went water ballooning and door bell ditching with the above guys. hahaha it was a theory that if we were going down any street by our houses we could find just about anyone to get. haha so one night we are driving down a side street and up past a park and we see these two ladies jogging and Jordan, Ordan, and Brandon are all in my mini van and we would switch people out to sit in the passenger seat and so first its Jordan , i think. So we get these two ladies right smack in the face haha perfect hit. So we go back toward my house and see two more ladies and are like SCORE!! haha so we get close, and this time it was brandon, and he throws the balloons and SMACK!! Another amazing hit. haha we look back and come to find out it was the same ladies. hahaha it was always fun going around in the mini van (gladyse the purple limo). no matter what we were doing we had a blast in that car.

well thats it.

this is kelsey signing off and reminding you that Nothing is ever impossible ;)

DAY #1 :D

1. I loath Weiner dogs. They have always been mean to me with one exception, Chadwick. He was my friends dog but he was old and couldn't walk, which meant he couldn't bite me haha. I love all other dogs hate Weiner dogs.

2. I talk to fast for my own good.

3. i explain everything i say, down to a T.

4. I like to take pictures of myself to convince me that im not turning into a hideous human being.

5. Long boarding is one of my passions and i love it! I may not be the greatest boarder ever but i still enjoy the wind in my hair ;)

6. I scrapbook everything i possibly can. If you were to ask me where my money goes it wouldn't be to clothes or knick knacks or any other useless thing, it would be to scrap booking.

7. I love any type of music (except rap).

8. Sports aren't my forte but i do enjoy watching a game or two here and there.

9. Outdoors is where i love to be any season.

10. I want to be a photographer.

11. I would love to visit china for a while and take pictures of its awesomeness.

12. I can't stand people who leave there shopping carts in parking spaces at the store.

13. I freeze during the hottest days in the summer.

14. I don't know how to NOT giggle, its just not in my nature.

15. I hate peas!

Something to look forward to!!

a good friend of mine did this on her blog and i thought it was something worth trying eh? so i m going to give it a go :D Thanks caitlyn :)

Day 01 - A recent photo of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02 - A really good memory.

Day 03 - A picture of you and your craziest friend

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn't have

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you've been to

Day 06 - A picture that shows your true self

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 11 - Your celebrity crush

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of something you hate

Day 14 - Picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - Someone you would want to switch lives w/ for one day and why

Day 17 - Your favorite song

Day 18 - A picture of the cast of your favourite show.

Day 19 - A picture of someone you miss

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22 - A picture that confuses you

Day 23 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 24- A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 25 - Picture of yourself and a family member

Day 26 - A picture of something that means alot to you.

Day 27 - A picture of something your afraid of

Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - Who are you?

Super heros

ok so i don't understand heroes sometimes. Well the ones they make movies and comics about. I mean i have a favorite super hero, but some things i just don't understand about them. Like why they have to make everything complicated hahaha. Why? I guess it was mostly to sell comics and movies haha but whatever. haha Why i am ranting about the Vigilantes of our comic book/ movie world is i was watching Spiderman and he wore his suit to fight crime in under his normal clothes! haha i mean that would make it extra hott wouldn't it? Well unless its in the winter then i guess you could stay warm but really why underneath the clothes? If they are super heroes can't they find a super fast way to change? hahaha just a thought i guess. Im no Louis Lane or anything. haha. I just wanted to put in my two cents i guess.

well this is Kelsey signing off

Bucket list!!!

I have only seen parts of the movie the bucket list, but i enjoyed the idea of making a list of what may seem like impossible things and then do them.

So maybe instead of bucket list im going to call this the List of Impossible Things. hahaha

ok so im going to go backwards from idk 100 and add as i go.

100. I want to invent something. Something like... Rocket shoes!! haha that would be awesome. Maybe even something to help people who don't have a lot.

99. Create my own cartoon. I want to make a comic book of this little boy i know and his puppy. It would be like Calvin and Hobbes but different. I would be the narrator of the story and then it would be the story of when i went to baby sit him and the things he would do with his puppy.

98. Fly in a recreational airplane. I want to sore above the clouds and just feel at peace. see the world from a different view.

97. Be in a bar fight. I have just want the feeling of punching someone. hahah i know that sounds terrible but i want to actually physically punch someone and start a fight! hahaha i think it would be kinda fun and kinda not. I just want to have a scar or black eye to show "ya i punched somebody I'm tough!" haha if you catch my drift hahaha

96. Take and put back together a car. I have always thought that would be fun. I don't know how i would learn but im going to and it will be awesome!

95. Pet a tiger. haha idk if its possible but i want to pet a tiger. I have always loved bigger cats. I hate the little ones. Pet a tiger would be awesome.

94. Go on a trail Horse back ride. i haven't ridden a horse in over 4 and a half years!! I want to so bad its probably not that cool to some but i really want to go.

93. Make a music video. hahaha idk i have always thought that would be cool.

92. Kiss a love in the rain! by love i mean a boy haha I have thought it to be romantic and basically legit! haha

91. I want to go and watch a DCI competition. I love music and i can appreciate it so i would love to go see the different bands play.

90. I would love to go to a Broadway musical! it would be so fun and exciting just to see people doing what they love to do ya know?

89. Go somewhere i haven't been before and do something i haven't dared try. I don't care what it is but just go and do something totally spontaneously :)

87. Learn to surf. I know how to long board and most people say that if you can do that then surfing will come easy to you. .. i will believe that when i see it but i would love love LOVE THAT!!

86. Change someones life for the better. I want to help someone or lots of someones who are in need of help to change there look on life help someone through something tremendous in there life idk how to explain it.

85. Play a xylaphone again. Just for a few moments just to know i still can...

84. i want to hike the mountain where i injured my leg. Prove i can make it to the top and down without an injury.

Thats all i can think of right now i will add more though

This is Kelsey signing off :)

Always the friend

Have you ever been the friend?

I have. Its a pain in the rear sometimes. I mean i love helping people and i love making people happy. Its just... sometimes it would be nice to know that someone out there is going to listen to me. I know that is really selfish but i really am not selfish that much. Ha now i sound super concieded, but really i am always thinking of how to help someone and for once i want to be helped haha. I want to know that i have a friend. I want to feel like i can share all my secrets with them and they won't go blab it to the world. I Love Love Love helping people and i love telling them ways to get through things. I just don't have someone outside my family (which isn't a bad thing) who i can go to and tell about stuff. What am i going to do when my sister gets married? She will have her husband and i won't have her around anymore. Its just all stuff i have been thinking about i guess.

Im going to college, my friends are going on missions, some to college as well. What will i do when they aren't here to see or laugh with? Am i going to make new friends? Will i find someone new to share inside jokes with? Whats going to happen? hahaha I just want to know sometimes don't you?

Anyways thats all i guess

This is kelsey signing off

Dream big!

Dream big and never look back.

I have never followed my dreams. I thought they were just in my head and that's where they would stay. I have a dream that is bursting at the seams. I want to take architectural, nature, and all kinds of other photos. I love taking pictures. I want to learn more. I want to travel the world and enjoy the beauty man made and the things made by our heavenly father. I have a dream of taking pictures and writing about the experiences and beauty of them. I have a dream that is bursting at the seams and I'm not going to let anyone tell me i can't follow it. Its time to follow my dreams and leave the past in the past and look toward a exciting future.

This is Kelsey signing off

is it illegal to make a man list?

Is it illegal to make a list of what you want in a man?

I don't think it should be if it is. I mean you don't have to even follow it! You can stray from it and add to it or simply just change it. Right? Of course right! :)

Anyways I want to make the list of the type of guy i would love to have but like i said i will probably change it like i change my status on Facebook.

ok so ...

#1. He must love dogs: I love love love dogs! They are adorable and love to cuddle and just seem to know when you are down and come to make it all better. They are like walking teddy bears! Its great!

#2. Great taste in music: Music is one of my weaknesses. Its like if i were a hero and my enemy wanted to know my weaknesses this would be one of them. It has to be good music though. Some sort of beat, good voice, some instrument, NO SCREAMING!, uh.. i don't necessarily like rap, but if its like consistent and i can understand the dude i will listen to it. Ya so good taste in music is a must.

#3. Play some sort of instrument: Like i said above I LOVE MUSIC! ha i would love it if the guy i find could play an instrument. Its ok if he doesn't i have an instrument i can play to serenade him haha but if he could What kind? any kind as long as he can play well or well enough to play at least a full song im super set. I just like watching people play its extraordinary! Imagine if you will a man playing the piano. Then comes a soft trumpet, followed by a violin or something. They start to harmonize with each other and it just sounds amazing! Can you hear it? i can and i would love to date a guy that could do something like that.

#4. Sing: I would love a guy that could play an instrument and serenade me! Again if not its totally fine this is just a what if senario. It doesn't have to be like a amazingly beautiful voice but one that i can here and enjoy hearing it. haha. I would just like to be idk sitting somewhere and then my dear sweet guy comes and just sings to me. Like maybe this is how it goes he is making music one night and then BAM! something hits him and he just can't wait for me to hear it. So then he comes and finds me and sings it to me. Like it was for me! ya know? Anyways singing would be lovely :)

#5. Must smell good: Oh man it is soooo important to me that you smell good. Ok so if i take time to shower, shave , put deodorant on, and spray my self with perfume. Then the guy should too! oh dear is that important! Oh and brush your teeth! If you think that your breath is rank pop a mint in your mouth or something so i don't have to smell it. Now i know thats harsh and im not going to be like "dang boy you stink!" but just to be idk courteous smell good. Thats all i ask haha

#6. NO RATED R MOVIES: OK here is my sh peal about rated R movies. I will date a guy that watches them but if you expect me to go with you to one or sit in the same room as you when you are watching one you are seriously mistaken. There are maybe two or three that i have seen and they have been on TV and i didn't know they were rated R until after it was over. So please think. i mean is it really worth it to go see some dude and or chick nude on a big screen? Is it really necessary to have cut off heads shown and blood and guts everywhere? idk to me thats just dumb. so ya no R movies.

#7 Must fit: What i mean by Must Fit is if he were to come up behind me and pull me into his arms i would fit. I don't want to feel to big for him or to tiny i want to be just right. I want to be the right size that when his arms wrap around me and he pulls me close that i feel comfortable, safe, warm, and all the above. I want to feel like i belong. does that make sense?

#8. Personality: He needs to be a goof. haha not as much as a goof as me but enough that he makes me laugh. I still want to have serious conversations and spiritual ones etc. but i want to laugh and i want him to love my laugh so much to the point that he can't stop smiling and or laughing because im laughing. I want to know that i can have fun and enjoy this guys company. I need someone who will talk. ha none of this i don't know what to say crap! You should be able to keep a conversation if you want to hang with this chikitita. So basically i want someone who will make me laugh, will hold his own in a conversation, will say more then one word in a conversation, and will be able to have serious moments and spiritual moments.

9. Old Movies: I love old movies!!! They just are amazing. This guy whoever he is needs to at least have seen a couple old movies and have enjoyed them to really get on my good side. hahaha. If he really wants to get my attention he will be able to quote my favorite older movie. which is "Singing In The Rain."

Well for now thats as far as i have gotten haha i will edit it more when i can think straight and its not 11:54 in the evening :)

this is Kelsey signing off