The lovely police station!

The police station here in Bakersfield is one of the nicest ones i have been too. I haven't really been to many but its pretty nice. I have a question that i have been pondering though. Do all police men have to have massive mustaches? I saw maybe five that had big mustaches. Not that they aren't cool cause they are but i'm just curious if its required that you grow one?

Anyways you must be wondering why i went to the police station. Well two punks decided to take my sisters truck while we were away at a wedding in Sin City. They had found it and we had gone to pick up a release form to take to the Jim's toeing place where it was being held hostage. It comes to our number and we go up there and find out that we don't need a release form. They were very nice there so we weren't frustrated about it. We then make our way to Jim's Toeing. When we get there the nice man takes us out to see the truck. We cross our fingers hoping for the best. When we get to the truck it turns out they destroyed the ignition, left oil all over the place, took all of her information out of the glove box, all of her cleaning supplies out from behind her seats, and ran into a poll. This did not make me happy. My sister has gone through so much these past months and did not deserve this. My sweet sister starts to cry and unlike me she says i will not blame god. wow i don't blame god but i sure as heck as why it happens to me. she didn't do either she just cried it out and asked what she could do to fix it. Thats why i love her, and her influence in my life.

So this goes out to the idiots that took my sisters car. You took from the wrong people. You should know not to piss off a red head. If i find you i will make your life a living nightmare. Not physically but mentally. If i ever catch you trying again i will make sure you are dragged to prison and don't get out for a long time. When you do i will put you on the biggest guilt trip of your life you will be begging to go back to prison. Who ever you are you deserve to pay for all the damage and all the repairs for her truck. capiche?

Thus the end of this post

Kelsey signing off

Boys i don't understand them

why is it when you finally get over someone they come rushing back into your life?

One word and I'm like butter in your hands. Is that fair? i don't think so. I finally get you out of my head and then you say you miss me and I'm a sucker for you all over again. You crushed me like a empty pop can and now you want to pull me out of recycling and try to make it OK? I don't know if its OK with me yet. You text me at random moments and ask how I'm doing but do you really care? Its hard to tell sometimes.

I care about you more then is understandable to the normal human being. Do you understand how much those weeks meant to me? I don't want to believe what people tell me about you but sometimes its difficult not to when you don't prove it wrong. The weeks we spent are running over and over in my head every day! I have to live here where we spent those weeks. i have to relive every memory every time i go to those places we had fun at. Every time i see a couple together every time i long board, etc etc etc. Why does this happen to me and not you? Again its because I'm still here and you aren't. If you were here and i wasn't it would be you in this situation and then maybe you would understand why i feel this way. I have told you how i felt but you didn't return the favor. You told me you understood. Thats it? We are just friends? If we are just friends then you shouldn't tell me the usual crap that you do if we are "just friends!"

Hence the end of my rant

Kelsey signing off

well this past week seemed like a dream. I went to Vegas to see some friends and see a friend get married. While i was there chill-in like a villan, it seemed like i had never left. It seemed as though i had gone back in time, but without all the stupid fights and drama. I felt like i hadn't left. I don't know how to explain it. All i know is that it was like i was in a dream. I was hanging out with the old gang, and we were doing what we used to do and i don't know it just seemed like nothing had changed. Like i hadn't moved and Ordan hadn't moved and like i was seventeen again. It was so crazy! I felt so immature and so young and so relaxed and like i was physically still there with my best friend in the whole world and nothing had changed. I'm glad nothing did change but it still felt a little off. Like someone was giving me a second chance. Like someone was trying to tell me this is where, who, and what i was supposed to be doing. Like a three day dejavu. I miss it already. I miss just being able to be myself in front of people who don't care what i act like and they still love me it was like being with my family. I loved it so much. I love Bakersfield don't get me wrong. Its just i know how to and be myself around my friends in Vegas, and they know who i am and love that. Here in Bakersfield some people are like that but i guess they just don't quite understand the ways of Kelsey. I guess I'm not quite letting anyone in either. I'm so confused right about Bakersfield, but when i went to Vegas i knew what was right and what was wrong. I don't know its weird.

well thats all

This is kelsey and im signing off have a good night! :)

Today I woke up thinking.

Today i woke up thinking.

Thinking about yesterday, today, and all of the things that had gone through my mind.

Yesterday i had felt the spirit in a way i haven't felt it before. I had felt it in a different way, a new way. It had open my mind to the things i didn't quite understand, it gave me a new perspective to look at. My testimony was strengthened and a friendship that i thought to be lost was found.

The lord works in his time not mine. He showed me that yesterday. He showed me that no matter when or where he is always listening, all i have to do is ask. I may not get an answer right away or the one i wanted, but yet he still helps me figure things out and puts me in the right direction.

Today i woke up thinking. How lucky am i to have a friend like him? He listened to everything i had to say and understood. If i hadn't of prayed for him to understand, he wouldn't have. There is a reason for all things and the lord has a plan for me.

Today i woke up knowing that yesterday i felt the spirit and that this is the true church. I woke up this morning knowing that Jesus Christ loved us all so much that he gave up his life for us. He suffered in the garden of Gethsemane for me. I know that he loves me and that i am never alone, that he is always with me.
Today i woke up thinking.

Tonight i go to sleep Knowing I am a daughter of a Heavenly King and that he Loves me.