One word and I'm like butter in your hands. Is that fair? i don't think so. I finally get you out of my head and then you say you miss me and I'm a sucker for you all over again. You crushed me like a empty pop can and now you want to pull me out of recycling and try to make it OK? I don't know if its OK with me yet. You text me at random moments and ask how I'm doing but do you really care? Its hard to tell sometimes.
I care about you more then is understandable to the normal human being. Do you understand how much those weeks meant to me? I don't want to believe what people tell me about you but sometimes its difficult not to when you don't prove it wrong. The weeks we spent are running over and over in my head every day! I have to live here where we spent those weeks. i have to relive every memory every time i go to those places we had fun at. Every time i see a couple together every time i long board, etc etc etc. Why does this happen to me and not you? Again its because I'm still here and you aren't. If you were here and i wasn't it would be you in this situation and then maybe you would understand why i feel this way. I have told you how i felt but you didn't return the favor. You told me you understood. Thats it? We are just friends? If we are just friends then you shouldn't tell me the usual crap that you do if we are "just friends!"
Hence the end of my rant
Kelsey signing off
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