Habit i wish i didn't have.

A habit i wish i didn't have is Biting my nails when im nervous.. hahah well i bite them whether im nervous or im not but its something i wish i didn't do. Especially when the ladies at the nail place look at your nails and at you say something in Chinese and then tell you how horrible they are and how nasty a habit it is. haha Ya so i guess i should stop, but ... it will be hard . haha but ya thats it.. :)

kelsey signing off

Day # 3 :)

We have been friends for idk MY WHOLE LIFE!! hahaha i love her to death and we party hardy all the time. We are always ourselves. hahaha that is all i can't really describe how awesome she is hahaha

Day numero dos!! ( that means 2 ha)

the funnest memorie i have had (not the only one) is when i went water ballooning and door bell ditching with the above guys. hahaha it was a theory that if we were going down any street by our houses we could find just about anyone to get. haha so one night we are driving down a side street and up past a park and we see these two ladies jogging and Jordan, Ordan, and Brandon are all in my mini van and we would switch people out to sit in the passenger seat and so first its Jordan , i think. So we get these two ladies right smack in the face haha perfect hit. So we go back toward my house and see two more ladies and are like SCORE!! haha so we get close, and this time it was brandon, and he throws the balloons and SMACK!! Another amazing hit. haha we look back and come to find out it was the same ladies. hahaha it was always fun going around in the mini van (gladyse the purple limo). no matter what we were doing we had a blast in that car.

well thats it.

this is kelsey signing off and reminding you that Nothing is ever impossible ;)

DAY #1 :D

1. I loath Weiner dogs. They have always been mean to me with one exception, Chadwick. He was my friends dog but he was old and couldn't walk, which meant he couldn't bite me haha. I love all other dogs hate Weiner dogs.

2. I talk to fast for my own good.

3. i explain everything i say, down to a T.

4. I like to take pictures of myself to convince me that im not turning into a hideous human being.

5. Long boarding is one of my passions and i love it! I may not be the greatest boarder ever but i still enjoy the wind in my hair ;)

6. I scrapbook everything i possibly can. If you were to ask me where my money goes it wouldn't be to clothes or knick knacks or any other useless thing, it would be to scrap booking.

7. I love any type of music (except rap).

8. Sports aren't my forte but i do enjoy watching a game or two here and there.

9. Outdoors is where i love to be any season.

10. I want to be a photographer.

11. I would love to visit china for a while and take pictures of its awesomeness.

12. I can't stand people who leave there shopping carts in parking spaces at the store.

13. I freeze during the hottest days in the summer.

14. I don't know how to NOT giggle, its just not in my nature.

15. I hate peas!

Something to look forward to!!

a good friend of mine did this on her blog and i thought it was something worth trying eh? so i m going to give it a go :D Thanks caitlyn :)

Day 01 - A recent photo of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02 - A really good memory.

Day 03 - A picture of you and your craziest friend

Day 04 - A habit that you wish you didn't have

Day 05 - A picture of somewhere you've been to

Day 06 - A picture that shows your true self

Day 07 - A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 11 - Your celebrity crush

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of something you hate

Day 14 - Picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - Someone you would want to switch lives w/ for one day and why

Day 17 - Your favorite song

Day 18 - A picture of the cast of your favourite show.

Day 19 - A picture of someone you miss

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22 - A picture that confuses you

Day 23 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 24- A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 25 - Picture of yourself and a family member

Day 26 - A picture of something that means alot to you.

Day 27 - A picture of something your afraid of

Day 28 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - Who are you?

Super heros

ok so i don't understand heroes sometimes. Well the ones they make movies and comics about. I mean i have a favorite super hero, but some things i just don't understand about them. Like why they have to make everything complicated hahaha. Why? I guess it was mostly to sell comics and movies haha but whatever. haha Why i am ranting about the Vigilantes of our comic book/ movie world is i was watching Spiderman and he wore his suit to fight crime in under his normal clothes! haha i mean that would make it extra hott wouldn't it? Well unless its in the winter then i guess you could stay warm but really why underneath the clothes? If they are super heroes can't they find a super fast way to change? hahaha just a thought i guess. Im no Louis Lane or anything. haha. I just wanted to put in my two cents i guess.

well this is Kelsey signing off

Bucket list!!!

I have only seen parts of the movie the bucket list, but i enjoyed the idea of making a list of what may seem like impossible things and then do them.

So maybe instead of bucket list im going to call this the List of Impossible Things. hahaha

ok so im going to go backwards from idk 100 and add as i go.

100. I want to invent something. Something like... Rocket shoes!! haha that would be awesome. Maybe even something to help people who don't have a lot.

99. Create my own cartoon. I want to make a comic book of this little boy i know and his puppy. It would be like Calvin and Hobbes but different. I would be the narrator of the story and then it would be the story of when i went to baby sit him and the things he would do with his puppy.

98. Fly in a recreational airplane. I want to sore above the clouds and just feel at peace. see the world from a different view.

97. Be in a bar fight. I have just want the feeling of punching someone. hahah i know that sounds terrible but i want to actually physically punch someone and start a fight! hahaha i think it would be kinda fun and kinda not. I just want to have a scar or black eye to show "ya i punched somebody I'm tough!" haha if you catch my drift hahaha

96. Take and put back together a car. I have always thought that would be fun. I don't know how i would learn but im going to and it will be awesome!

95. Pet a tiger. haha idk if its possible but i want to pet a tiger. I have always loved bigger cats. I hate the little ones. Pet a tiger would be awesome.

94. Go on a trail Horse back ride. i haven't ridden a horse in over 4 and a half years!! I want to so bad its probably not that cool to some but i really want to go.

93. Make a music video. hahaha idk i have always thought that would be cool.

92. Kiss a love in the rain! by love i mean a boy haha I have thought it to be romantic and basically legit! haha

91. I want to go and watch a DCI competition. I love music and i can appreciate it so i would love to go see the different bands play.

90. I would love to go to a Broadway musical! it would be so fun and exciting just to see people doing what they love to do ya know?

89. Go somewhere i haven't been before and do something i haven't dared try. I don't care what it is but just go and do something totally spontaneously :)

87. Learn to surf. I know how to long board and most people say that if you can do that then surfing will come easy to you. .. i will believe that when i see it but i would love love LOVE THAT!!

86. Change someones life for the better. I want to help someone or lots of someones who are in need of help to change there look on life help someone through something tremendous in there life idk how to explain it.

85. Play a xylaphone again. Just for a few moments just to know i still can...

84. i want to hike the mountain where i injured my leg. Prove i can make it to the top and down without an injury.

Thats all i can think of right now i will add more though

This is Kelsey signing off :)

Always the friend

Have you ever been the friend?

I have. Its a pain in the rear sometimes. I mean i love helping people and i love making people happy. Its just... sometimes it would be nice to know that someone out there is going to listen to me. I know that is really selfish but i really am not selfish that much. Ha now i sound super concieded, but really i am always thinking of how to help someone and for once i want to be helped haha. I want to know that i have a friend. I want to feel like i can share all my secrets with them and they won't go blab it to the world. I Love Love Love helping people and i love telling them ways to get through things. I just don't have someone outside my family (which isn't a bad thing) who i can go to and tell about stuff. What am i going to do when my sister gets married? She will have her husband and i won't have her around anymore. Its just all stuff i have been thinking about i guess.

Im going to college, my friends are going on missions, some to college as well. What will i do when they aren't here to see or laugh with? Am i going to make new friends? Will i find someone new to share inside jokes with? Whats going to happen? hahaha I just want to know sometimes don't you?

Anyways thats all i guess

This is kelsey signing off

Dream big!

Dream big and never look back.

I have never followed my dreams. I thought they were just in my head and that's where they would stay. I have a dream that is bursting at the seams. I want to take architectural, nature, and all kinds of other photos. I love taking pictures. I want to learn more. I want to travel the world and enjoy the beauty man made and the things made by our heavenly father. I have a dream of taking pictures and writing about the experiences and beauty of them. I have a dream that is bursting at the seams and I'm not going to let anyone tell me i can't follow it. Its time to follow my dreams and leave the past in the past and look toward a exciting future.

This is Kelsey signing off

is it illegal to make a man list?

Is it illegal to make a list of what you want in a man?

I don't think it should be if it is. I mean you don't have to even follow it! You can stray from it and add to it or simply just change it. Right? Of course right! :)

Anyways I want to make the list of the type of guy i would love to have but like i said i will probably change it like i change my status on Facebook.

ok so ...

#1. He must love dogs: I love love love dogs! They are adorable and love to cuddle and just seem to know when you are down and come to make it all better. They are like walking teddy bears! Its great!

#2. Great taste in music: Music is one of my weaknesses. Its like if i were a hero and my enemy wanted to know my weaknesses this would be one of them. It has to be good music though. Some sort of beat, good voice, some instrument, NO SCREAMING!, uh.. i don't necessarily like rap, but if its like consistent and i can understand the dude i will listen to it. Ya so good taste in music is a must.

#3. Play some sort of instrument: Like i said above I LOVE MUSIC! ha i would love it if the guy i find could play an instrument. Its ok if he doesn't i have an instrument i can play to serenade him haha but if he could What kind? any kind as long as he can play well or well enough to play at least a full song im super set. I just like watching people play its extraordinary! Imagine if you will a man playing the piano. Then comes a soft trumpet, followed by a violin or something. They start to harmonize with each other and it just sounds amazing! Can you hear it? i can and i would love to date a guy that could do something like that.

#4. Sing: I would love a guy that could play an instrument and serenade me! Again if not its totally fine this is just a what if senario. It doesn't have to be like a amazingly beautiful voice but one that i can here and enjoy hearing it. haha. I would just like to be idk sitting somewhere and then my dear sweet guy comes and just sings to me. Like maybe this is how it goes he is making music one night and then BAM! something hits him and he just can't wait for me to hear it. So then he comes and finds me and sings it to me. Like it was for me! ya know? Anyways singing would be lovely :)

#5. Must smell good: Oh man it is soooo important to me that you smell good. Ok so if i take time to shower, shave , put deodorant on, and spray my self with perfume. Then the guy should too! oh dear is that important! Oh and brush your teeth! If you think that your breath is rank pop a mint in your mouth or something so i don't have to smell it. Now i know thats harsh and im not going to be like "dang boy you stink!" but just to be idk courteous smell good. Thats all i ask haha

#6. NO RATED R MOVIES: OK here is my sh peal about rated R movies. I will date a guy that watches them but if you expect me to go with you to one or sit in the same room as you when you are watching one you are seriously mistaken. There are maybe two or three that i have seen and they have been on TV and i didn't know they were rated R until after it was over. So please think. i mean is it really worth it to go see some dude and or chick nude on a big screen? Is it really necessary to have cut off heads shown and blood and guts everywhere? idk to me thats just dumb. so ya no R movies.

#7 Must fit: What i mean by Must Fit is if he were to come up behind me and pull me into his arms i would fit. I don't want to feel to big for him or to tiny i want to be just right. I want to be the right size that when his arms wrap around me and he pulls me close that i feel comfortable, safe, warm, and all the above. I want to feel like i belong. does that make sense?

#8. Personality: He needs to be a goof. haha not as much as a goof as me but enough that he makes me laugh. I still want to have serious conversations and spiritual ones etc. but i want to laugh and i want him to love my laugh so much to the point that he can't stop smiling and or laughing because im laughing. I want to know that i can have fun and enjoy this guys company. I need someone who will talk. ha none of this i don't know what to say crap! You should be able to keep a conversation if you want to hang with this chikitita. So basically i want someone who will make me laugh, will hold his own in a conversation, will say more then one word in a conversation, and will be able to have serious moments and spiritual moments.

9. Old Movies: I love old movies!!! They just are amazing. This guy whoever he is needs to at least have seen a couple old movies and have enjoyed them to really get on my good side. hahaha. If he really wants to get my attention he will be able to quote my favorite older movie. which is "Singing In The Rain."

Well for now thats as far as i have gotten haha i will edit it more when i can think straight and its not 11:54 in the evening :)

this is Kelsey signing off

they don't get me ha

I often think of random things at random moments in random settings with random people. Sometimes i don't know these people, sometimes i even ramble when trying to start a conversation, and sometimes there is even that moment when i ramble about random things that no one quite understands. I just don't think many people get me. Its taken my family well all my life to figure me out, and my life isn't over yet. I may come up to you and say " Hi my name is Kelsey im sure i haven't met you yet, whats your name? what is your favorite color? do you play the piano? Do you like to party? What is an elephant doing in your pajamas?" ... and etc. Yes some may say this is the ramblings of a psycho person. Some think its quite hilarious, others just down right weird. So i ask you do you get me? haha i didn't think so. What im trying to get at here is that don't be offended if you are talking to me and i go off on a random subject. I can't control my brain. well i can but for some reason i missed the class about how to shut your yap when someone else is talking. Well and the class about how to control your filter, and how to use caution when brain is at high speed. You know what i basically missed the "Brain classes" all together haha. Moving on.... I'm random thats just all there is too it. If you can't handle the heat get out of the kitchen. In this case if you can't handle the Kelsey get out of the kitchen. :)

This is all haha for now

Kelsey signing off

The lovely police station!

The police station here in Bakersfield is one of the nicest ones i have been too. I haven't really been to many but its pretty nice. I have a question that i have been pondering though. Do all police men have to have massive mustaches? I saw maybe five that had big mustaches. Not that they aren't cool cause they are but i'm just curious if its required that you grow one?

Anyways you must be wondering why i went to the police station. Well two punks decided to take my sisters truck while we were away at a wedding in Sin City. They had found it and we had gone to pick up a release form to take to the Jim's toeing place where it was being held hostage. It comes to our number and we go up there and find out that we don't need a release form. They were very nice there so we weren't frustrated about it. We then make our way to Jim's Toeing. When we get there the nice man takes us out to see the truck. We cross our fingers hoping for the best. When we get to the truck it turns out they destroyed the ignition, left oil all over the place, took all of her information out of the glove box, all of her cleaning supplies out from behind her seats, and ran into a poll. This did not make me happy. My sister has gone through so much these past months and did not deserve this. My sweet sister starts to cry and unlike me she says i will not blame god. wow i don't blame god but i sure as heck as why it happens to me. she didn't do either she just cried it out and asked what she could do to fix it. Thats why i love her, and her influence in my life.

So this goes out to the idiots that took my sisters car. You took from the wrong people. You should know not to piss off a red head. If i find you i will make your life a living nightmare. Not physically but mentally. If i ever catch you trying again i will make sure you are dragged to prison and don't get out for a long time. When you do i will put you on the biggest guilt trip of your life you will be begging to go back to prison. Who ever you are you deserve to pay for all the damage and all the repairs for her truck. capiche?

Thus the end of this post

Kelsey signing off

Boys i don't understand them

why is it when you finally get over someone they come rushing back into your life?

One word and I'm like butter in your hands. Is that fair? i don't think so. I finally get you out of my head and then you say you miss me and I'm a sucker for you all over again. You crushed me like a empty pop can and now you want to pull me out of recycling and try to make it OK? I don't know if its OK with me yet. You text me at random moments and ask how I'm doing but do you really care? Its hard to tell sometimes.

I care about you more then is understandable to the normal human being. Do you understand how much those weeks meant to me? I don't want to believe what people tell me about you but sometimes its difficult not to when you don't prove it wrong. The weeks we spent are running over and over in my head every day! I have to live here where we spent those weeks. i have to relive every memory every time i go to those places we had fun at. Every time i see a couple together every time i long board, etc etc etc. Why does this happen to me and not you? Again its because I'm still here and you aren't. If you were here and i wasn't it would be you in this situation and then maybe you would understand why i feel this way. I have told you how i felt but you didn't return the favor. You told me you understood. Thats it? We are just friends? If we are just friends then you shouldn't tell me the usual crap that you do if we are "just friends!"

Hence the end of my rant

Kelsey signing off

well this past week seemed like a dream. I went to Vegas to see some friends and see a friend get married. While i was there chill-in like a villan, it seemed like i had never left. It seemed as though i had gone back in time, but without all the stupid fights and drama. I felt like i hadn't left. I don't know how to explain it. All i know is that it was like i was in a dream. I was hanging out with the old gang, and we were doing what we used to do and i don't know it just seemed like nothing had changed. Like i hadn't moved and Ordan hadn't moved and like i was seventeen again. It was so crazy! I felt so immature and so young and so relaxed and like i was physically still there with my best friend in the whole world and nothing had changed. I'm glad nothing did change but it still felt a little off. Like someone was giving me a second chance. Like someone was trying to tell me this is where, who, and what i was supposed to be doing. Like a three day dejavu. I miss it already. I miss just being able to be myself in front of people who don't care what i act like and they still love me it was like being with my family. I loved it so much. I love Bakersfield don't get me wrong. Its just i know how to and be myself around my friends in Vegas, and they know who i am and love that. Here in Bakersfield some people are like that but i guess they just don't quite understand the ways of Kelsey. I guess I'm not quite letting anyone in either. I'm so confused right about Bakersfield, but when i went to Vegas i knew what was right and what was wrong. I don't know its weird.

well thats all

This is kelsey and im signing off have a good night! :)

Today I woke up thinking.

Today i woke up thinking.

Thinking about yesterday, today, and all of the things that had gone through my mind.

Yesterday i had felt the spirit in a way i haven't felt it before. I had felt it in a different way, a new way. It had open my mind to the things i didn't quite understand, it gave me a new perspective to look at. My testimony was strengthened and a friendship that i thought to be lost was found.

The lord works in his time not mine. He showed me that yesterday. He showed me that no matter when or where he is always listening, all i have to do is ask. I may not get an answer right away or the one i wanted, but yet he still helps me figure things out and puts me in the right direction.

Today i woke up thinking. How lucky am i to have a friend like him? He listened to everything i had to say and understood. If i hadn't of prayed for him to understand, he wouldn't have. There is a reason for all things and the lord has a plan for me.

Today i woke up knowing that yesterday i felt the spirit and that this is the true church. I woke up this morning knowing that Jesus Christ loved us all so much that he gave up his life for us. He suffered in the garden of Gethsemane for me. I know that he loves me and that i am never alone, that he is always with me.
Today i woke up thinking.

Tonight i go to sleep Knowing I am a daughter of a Heavenly King and that he Loves me.

Carts they are every where!!

OM Goodness!! I swear that if i see another cart in a parking lot 2inches from the "return carts here" area i will scream at the top of my lungs! Is it really that hard to put your cart away? I swear everyone thinks that eh i will leave it here for someone else to get because I'm to tired and I'm in a hurry and blah Di blah Di blah! Its just excuses people. It doesn't make sense. So next time your at a store and you see a cart would you just maybe i don't know pick it up and put it back for the lazy person who didn't. Then there would be more parking spaces free and you wouldn't get into a bumper to front wheel accident with a stupid cart!

Hence the end of my rant.

Memorie keeper

I have this tendency to retain memories. The good and ... the bad. Sometimes they are really really great memories. When they are it usually involves something else. Like say a song, every song i have has a memorie tied to it. Some are from grand adventures and some are from the worst heart aches and breaks i have had. You would think a normal person would get rid of them and return to the normal life they pretend to lead. I can't. For some reason i have to hold on to these little trinkets and songs etc. until i burst into flames from how angry i am, or even run out of water from how long i have cried etc. Whatever i am given i hold dear. yes if it is nasty and old i will throw away and right down the memorie of it so i have it always. Im not a horder. I guess you could say im a sort of memorie keeper.

Take this for example , my friend Ordan Smith gave me his longboard out of the kindess of his heart, well and i sucked so i needed something to practice on, and sadly i had to take the old wheels off. so what i did was kept this one wheel that was chipped and now have it in this cool case where i can look at it and remember the funny storie behind it. I still have the board too and that is an amazing storie in and of it self. So you can see i do have memories tied to little trinkets. If you doubted, which you should never doubt a red head. Its a known fact.

Another example is this flower i got from another guy i just found it in the book i was reading when he gave it to me. It was dried out and flat but still brought back a good and bad memorie as well.

Even though they are good/bad memories it doesnt make the people bad/better i still care about the people that gave me these memories and they are wonderful people. They have taught me lessons that i needed to learn and that is why i think i am a memorie keeper. I keep the good and the bad. I keep the lessons learned and the lessons yet to be taught. I do have my ups and downs just like anyone. Sometimes they are easy and sometimes there hard but if i can get through them anyone can.

this is kelsey signing off!
I have always wanted to do that hahah